I’ve been adrift lately with regards to our work, not sure what I should be focusing upon. With the earlier sephirah, we were invoking the energy of one sphere; now, we are suspended between four of them, at the intersection of the Tower and Temperance.<\/p>\n
Catastrophic taming, I suppose.<\/p>\n
We are not in Hod or Netzach; the point of equilibrium between us, where we are, is more than just a balance between right and left. It is also a balance between Yesod and Tiphareth.<\/p>\n
As I look to the left and the right, I also need to look above and below.<\/p>\n
The splendor of the intellect is a place I spend most of my time anyway, with the work that I do. I understand Hod very well. At first, I assumed I would need balance with Netzach, and that was the great lesson for me here.<\/p>\n
My emotions, however, are known, and tamed. I may lack in the ability to use my emotions for manifestation, a very potent force, which is why I created the ALF project, to ensure I practice this power diligently.<\/p>\n
The most I am out of balance, when I examine my known self, is with thoughts of lust.<\/p>\n
I have a very high libido. Thankfully, I have a lusty wife, and access to a world of porn. I never go dissatisfied.<\/p>\n
My satisfaction takes temporary precedence over my other thoughts, however, 3-5 times per week.<\/p>\n
Sometimes, this depletes my chi, dulling my effectiveness, all because idle lusty thoughts creep into my mind and consume my thinking and feeling capacity.<\/p>\n
So today, I looked at the Tree, and asked where these lusty thoughts originate.<\/p>\n
It is, of course, in the imagination, in Yesod. Corresponding with the second chakra, of course.<\/p>\n
I imagine sexual fantasies frequently, and not because I need to, or because I am recently deprived. It is idle. In a word, masturbatory.<\/p>\n
I hold of my intellectual thinking time to an appropriate portion of my day; if I have a great idea that needs further development, I record it into my voice recorder, and when I am alert and caffeinated, I review my notes and implement them.<\/p>\n
Likewise, I should not be indulging in lusty thoughts when it is not the time for me to be indulging in them.<\/p>\n
During the other portions of my day, I do not want to descend into baser thoughts. I want to look higher, into Beauty.<\/p>\n
This, then, is my final lesson of balance at this point of the tree.<\/p>\n
In my right and left hands, my intellect and my heart.<\/p>\n
Below me is my desires. Above is my higher self.<\/p>\n
I do not wish to completely abstain from my baser desires, but I will refrain from continual indulgence, in order that my higher mind can spend time untarnished in the forefront of my thoughts.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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