I’m having breakthroughs left and right. I hope you two are as well; I’d love to hear about them.
Since it helps me to process something by writing about it, I’m going to through these revelation-bombs your way. Maybe a better step would be to set up a blog to hold my magical musings, but for right now, you are the exclusive readers of the metaphysical-blog-yet-to-be. (Whoa. Heady.)
Today I felt really grateful to have the tools at my disposal that Amanda introduced to us. My whole household was thrown into disarray; the preschool attached to our house starts summer term tomorrow, and the two teachers both quit today. My wife and her mom run the school together, and my mother in law has a real habit of stewing in anger over negative things. I saw this building, and so I put up my defenses, and had to use a couple of the rituals multiple times.
Even though everyone else in the house was on an emotional roller coaster, I alone was able to ride the waves with an even keel. When one of the teachers called and had an hour long nasty phone call with my wifes mom, I stayed upstairs with the kids, cleansing the space and praying. Even with the fireworks going off, they were kept very calm by my work. I came downstairs to sage off my wife, and then her mom, and she accepted it gratefully. They’re both from New Mexico and understand sage.
When my mother in law wanted to start bitching about the situation though, immediately after three ‘In Nomini Padre’s, I had to stop her and say, ‘You can talk to Johanna about this, but I can’t talk about it. My responsibility right now is to hold the light for the house.’ I didn’t want to get trapped into the duality illusion and participate in the (sometimes) necessary decompression known as gossip.
She snapped at me and put up all these defenses about what she had been meaning to say; I recognized that she had just gone through an extremely negative confrontation, apologized, and left the room. My kids are sleeping soundly. I’ve protected them, and done what I could for those going through the thick of the negative energies.
I’m much more sensitive to these waves of energy now. I can feel them coming, prepare for them, manage them, and analyze them after they’ve run their course. This added perspective on existence is another one of the joys of this work.