Today is the Summer Solstice. The apex of the year.
I am in a transitional time, this year.
My new job is going well. I’m focused on doing good work here, and re-establishing my financial footing. I am grateful that my days can now be spent in doing good work, living simply, and raising my children, instead of hustling for the next customer all the time.
Yesterday was the New Moon. I went through an Angel Invocation for Tilath, an element of earth, who guides gardening, flowerinf, and blossoming.
Normally I would have aimed at a much more prosperity-minded earth spirit, but I had the invocation for this one in a spellbook. I have 4 elemental angels I can invoke, and on the Full Moon I will invoke an angel of Water, then on the next new Moon an angel of Air, and on the following Full moon an angel of Fire.
these invocations are my reward to myself for abstaining from marijuana during this six week period, and exercising every morning at 530.
Tilath was busy, tending her roots, and I made my humble requests: I want a mountain of my own, so that I may plant an orchard, and my children can learn how to grow things in the earth. She happily told me to sit tight, and within the year I will have it.
I basked contentedly in her presence for a time, and ended our communion.
Today, I went to the top of the mountain wher I live, and went through my rituals, up to the Pattern on the Trestleboard. I went no further, because I am hesitant to invoke (or banish) too much magical energy, after the recent chaos that deep study in my practice has once again caused.
I think one of the keys is refraining from those rituals that I find hazardous, because of the ability of other mortals to use them as conduits to sap my energy. The Affirmation to healing, and casting the circle, I have found to be at high risk for this, so I no longer perform them.
I have also amended the LBRP, so that instead of a banishing pentagram of earth, I create a banishing pentagram of spirit (or an invoking pentagram of earth, ironically) and focus on bringing the earth energies, and elemental energies, into me. Calling the 4 archangels during this ritual feels like a stronger protection this way.
I move forward cautiously, careful not to overdo it, and happy with my humble lot in life.